On this spiritual journey, I have realised recently how important it is for me to listen to my heart, instead of being dominated by the mind. To patiently & lovingly tune in to my heart and allow it to speak.
For many years, I allowed the mind to dominate, and I made decisions using my head rather than my heart. I tried my best to achieve the success defined by the mainstream, clocking long hours studying & working hard. But recently, things slowly changed within me. Perspectives are shifting. Perhaps the precious time dedicated to healing & working on myself daily created in me the mental space & energy to take a step back, and to reflect on my current situation.
Why am I striving so hard at work? Why am I so bothered by other people’s judgements & opinions? What is the cause of my worry & stress at work? What truly matters to my soul?
I come to realise, I strived so hard at work because I craved for success & recognition. It felt as if these achievements (once attained) could allow me to start on a clean slate, erasing issues of lack of confidence, inferiority complex and low self-esteem. It is akin to acquiring a plaster to paste over a deep wound, which could be traced back in present life to childhood memories of experiencing what failure felt like, and the fear of re-living the failure.
As I reflected, I wonder: was this chase for a plaster (for most of my life) a means to bypass the need to deal with my wound from within? To look externally for quick fixes or quick solutions, instead of tuning in to the wound and asking it what it needs to be healed?
Slowly but surely, the relationship between my mind & heart is being re-established. Nowadays, it is more frequent for my mind to take a step back, and listen to what my heart has to say. In the past, my mind was like the domineering boss, whereas my heart was the quiet subordinate; there was minimal room for negotiation. These days, their relationship seemingly evolved into one where my mind is like an older sibling who cares for his/her younger sibling, the little vulnerable heart.
Heart, how are you feeling today? Is there anything bothering you that I can help you with? How can we work together to heal those wounds & release those suppressed emotions trapped within?
I am blessed to witness my own growth, step by step, day by day.
Dearest Masters, would you like to share anything with us on this topic?
Dear children, wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, be brave. It is certainly not easy to face directly our deepest & darkest wounds stored & buried deeply in our system. As we keep adding on over the years, these issues don’t disappear; they simply accumulate over time. All it takes to start is your intention to work deeply on yourself & the determination to be brave. When you feel ready to work on yourself, start slow, one issue at a time, and be patient. Don’t allow other people’s opinions, judgements & influences to get in the way of your healing & growth. You’re precious as you are.
Wishing you well, Blessings be to All! ❤